I, the Lord, search the heart, I test the mind, Even to give every man according to his ways, According to the fruit of his doings. Jeremiah 17:10
For many years, I thought I was of no value. After always being picked last for sports, being ignored by those who would rather hang out with the popular group, and ignored by those who grew up and wanted to belong to the popular groups. I had very little self-worth.
I felt fat and repulsive, because others people's actions told me that's what I was, although no one ever said it with words. It was a sad, lonely life and I consoled myself with food. When I ate, none of that seemed to matter. Of course, in reality, the eating only made the problem worse and it made my self-esteem drop, as well.
It wasn't until years of putting myself down, so no one could do it first, that God showed me differently. Christ saw the person inside me that has nothing to do with the numbers on the bathroom scale. God showed me that my self-worth is not determined by that or any one else. He searches the heart and tests the mind and gives to every man [or woman] according to [their] ways. Well, He allowed the 80 pounds of excess weight to come off and the vast majority of it to stay off for over 30 years, but that's not when Christ showed me my self-worth. He showed it to me when I was at my heaviest and down on myself, because He never gave up on me. Not because of my size, but because I am a blessed child of God and so are you. Don't forget to turn to Him, for He sees the person inside of you that has nothing to do with numbers on the scale, as well!
