And he opened the bottomless pit; and there arose a smoke out of the pit, [like] the smoke of a great furnace; and the sun and the air were darkened [because] of the smoke of the pit. Revelation 9:2 KJV Bible
It seems that I have been taking my relationship with the Lord God for granted! He has done amazing things in my life! One of which, is the Lord took away my urge to eat immense amounts of food. I used to eat, and eat, until I nearly made myself sick. This never changed, until I told the Lord God that: I give up after all the dieting, and if He ever wanted me to be thin, He'd have to do it, because I can't!
Well, He did just that! At the time, I didn't expect the Lord to do anything, other than realize that I was giving up after 90 bazillion diets, only to gain back more weight than I had lost. But the Lord actually took that urge to eat large amounts of food away. It turns out that I had made food a false god in my life, and I was turning to food to comfort me in times of stress, etc., instead of turning to the Lord God. He showed me that when I felt hungry, especially at times when I shouldn't still feel hungry, I can turn that gnawing feeling in the pit of my stomach, usually caused by stress, over to His capable hands.
So I pray each time I eat, or want to eat when I shouldn't, for the Lord God to take care of my food, body, and eating, and He's done this for over 40 years! But yesterday... I was going to a late lunch with some family, and was hungry. So, I ate three pieces of overly ripe fruit to tide me over. But then, we went to get chicken for lunch, I ate three pieces of fried chicken, because I rarely eat it. I also ate the biscuit, and coleslaw, and felt just fine. It frightened me, because when I got home, I realized that I could still probably eat an apple or two, on top of all of that. The Lord God showed me that the Bottomless Pit that I turned over to Him, could come back, if I let it. It shows me that I've become too complacent in my relationship with the Lord, and I was starting to turn to food again, which would only spiral me down deeper into the pit, if I let it. I need to focus on praying to the Lord God to let Him be in charge of my food, body, eating. and stress. and not me!
