Why, you don't even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while, and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, "If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that." As it is, you boast in your arrogant schemes. All such boasting is evil. James 4:14-16
Deep down, I know that when I pray, I should ask the Lord's will in whatever the matter is, but do I? Unfortunately, although this is a vitally important thing, I rarely do it. I get caught up in asking the Lord God to do this or that, whatever way I'm asking. And to top that I off, I also pray, please don't let it be this other way, that I disapprove of, as if, I'm the Almighty God, Who knows what is best!
How could I be so arrogant. The Lord God has generously shown me His hand in my life more times than I can mention. One of which is that He took away my desire to eat large amounts of food, and sugar until I'm sick to my stomach. Did I do this myself? No way! It didn't happen until one day when I had been on a bazillion diets, but only had regained what little weight I had lost.
I sat down that morning and told the Lord God, that I was giving up. I had tried losing weight and I couldn't do it, and if He wanted me to be thin, He's have to do it, because I couldn't! Well, that very same day is when He took those compulsive overeating urges away from me. I wasn't even exactly asking for them. I was just putting the Lord God on notice that I was giving up on dieting. But He, in His infinite wisdom and mercy, realized that I had given up my control over to Him, although I didn't quite know if yet. If the Lord God knew what was best in this situation, and so many other situations in my life, why wouldn't I ask Him for His will to be done and not mine? There's a lot of me to prayerfully contemplate in all of this. First of all, I need to apologize to the Lord God for being so arrogant, to think I know what's best!
