You planted much, but harvested little. You eat, but never have enough. You drink, but never have your fill. You put on clothes, but are not warm. You earn wages, only to pt them in a purse with holes in it. Haggai 1:6 NIV Bible
Boy, that seems to describe me to a tee, especially the part about eating, but never have enough. Having been to a funeral, of late, I'm still trying to deal with the overwhelming feelings of grief that spring up now and again. I feel like grieving is a lay-away thing for me. A little grief now, a little grief later, often when you least expect it.
Well, I had been good about turning my eating over to the Lord God's very capable hands during all of this, but there was one evening, when I had already had enough to eat, that I picked up a half-full bag of a semi-healthy snack. I sat down and just ate every single piece of snack food in that bag! I was trying to fill a hole with my eating, which nobody could fill but the Lord.
I knew ahead of time that this mindless eating wouldn't solve my grief, but I did it anyway, knowing that. Go figure! When I turned to the Lord about this, I admitted to Him how counterproductive this was. Not only did it not satisfy my grief, it left me nauseated the next day. I need to just stay focused on turning my feelings over to the Lord, rather than grabbing the handiest bag to help solve the hole in the pit of my stomach!
