The prophet went and stood by the road waiting for the king. He disguised himself with his headband down over his eyes. 1 Kings 20:38 NIV Bible
Although I wasn't waiting on a road for a king, in the past, I have used my fat to keep me from interactions with others. I feared the rejection of others, so I told myself, "They won't want to be friends with me, because I'm heavy." Unfortunately, I did this for many years of my life, hiding behind my fat exterior.
But I found out when I was much thinner, thanks to the Lord God, that there are many other things we can hide behind, instead of our fat. I can say, "I don't drive as nice a car, I'm not in their social group, I'm not as attractive as they are, I'm not...." But these things are ways that have kept me from facing potential rejection.
Now, on the other hand, these things kept me from potentially having productive relationships with others. It wasn't until one day, I had this interaction with a very attractive young mother, that caused me to start view this differently. Actually, she had been an airline stewardess and a model, and was way out of my league. I never approached her, but one day when she was waiting to drop off her child at school, she seemed so forlorn. I asked her if she'd like to come over to my house and she said that she would. During the time she was there, she told me how lonely she was. She had major issues to contend with, but didn't have many friends for moral support throughout these. It appears I'm not the only one who doesn't approach others who appear to be out of our league. Anyway, this made me realize that my hiding behind my disguise of fat, not only hurt me, but it hurt this lady, who so badly needed a friend!
