For they eat the bread of wickedness, and drink the wine of violence. Proverbs 4:17
I used to eat, stuffing food down in my mouth, as if it were a weapon. I would eat thinking about all mean insensitive things that others did to me. I would eat over what I thought they thought about me. I ate over what I thought was their disapproval of me and my size.
I would eat, as if I was punishing them for all the hurtful, wicked, things they said and did, but did I? No, for the only one I harmed was me, but that wasn't good either! In fact, I was hurting myself while I was mentally trying to pay them back for disregarding me and my contributions as a person.
The thing I learned, when I started turning my food, body, eating, and stress over into Christ's very capable hands, was usually, these people weren't really all that focused on me. I just thought they were. Regardless if they were or not, it wasn't right for me to eat thinking hateful, wicked things to those other people. In that case, I was the one who was the one who was eating the bread of wickedness. Fortunately, Christ has shown me there is a better way. When I am angry or stressed, I can turn these hurt, angry feelings into Christ's very capable hands and He will heal my aching soul, if I let Him.
Since I applying this Bible verse to my own life, it may not convey the whole meaning of the verse. Debbie
