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Thursday, October 4, 2012

I Was Consumed With Not Feeling Good About Myself

Have mercy upon me, O Lord, for I am in trouble: mine eye is consumed with grief, yea, my soul and my belly. Psalm 31:9

I found that when I was heaviest over 30+ years ago, I found that I was so consumed with not feeling good about myself and my body, that it clouded my relationships with my family. I would go to get dressed for church, but my clothes didn't fit well.  I found myself not really wanting to go to church where others would see me in ill-fitting clothes.

During the week, when I couldn't find much to wear, I found myself being cranky with my family who had nothing to do with the size of my clothes. I feel badly about it now, but at the time, that's where I was.

There was a period of time where God had me see how I was acting to others and how overeating food had been controlling my life, how I felt about myself, the things I was willing to do in public, and my interactions with my family. I didn't want to go out into the public unless it was absolutely necessary, which means that my children didn't get to go to some of the activities I might have done otherwise.

It seemed as if I was watching my food related actions/reactions, almost from a distance, as I was in the midst of doing them. All I can say is it was like God was having me see myself doing these things and see how they affected my family, affected me, and my relationship with God. I seemed more "I-me" focused because I was in the midst of pain (grief) and wasn't able to change my actions for long, although I went on many diets. I lost some weight on some, but never kept it off for long, which seemed to make me feel even more like a failure.

When I turned my eating and my vice of control over to God, my whole life changed. I no longer walked about in overtones of grief from day to day. God is the light of my life and saved me from myself and my weaknesses. So, although I will talk on the blog about many of the feelings I had while I was losing the weight or maintaining the weight loss, God has moved me beyond these feelings, although I may find myself slipping back into old patterns at times, especially when I get sloppy with my food program at times like now. That's why it's vitally important that I have an on-going active relationship with God.

Since I have used this Bible passage as an example of how God has positively influenced my overeating, this does not necessarily reflect the whole meaning of the verse.

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