The Only One I Harmed Was Me, but That Wasn't Good Either

 For they eat the bread of wickedness, and drink the wine of violence. Proverbs 4:17

I used to eat, stuffing food down in my mouth, as if it were a weapon. I would eat thinking about all mean insensitive things that others did to me. I would eat over what I thought they thought about me. I ate over what I thought was their disapproval of me and my size. 

I would eat, as if I was punishing them for all the hurtful, wicked, things they said and did, but did I? No, for the only one I harmed was me, but that wasn't good either! In fact, I was hurting myself while I was mentally trying to pay them back for disregarding me and my contributions as a person. 

The thing I learned, when I started turning my food, body, eating, and stress over into Christ's very capable hands, was usually, these people weren't really all that focused on me. I just thought they were. Regardless if they were or not, it wasn't right for me to eat thinking hateful, wicked things to those other people. In that case, I was the one who was the one who was eating the bread of wickedness. Fortunately, Christ has shown me there is a better way. When I am angry or stressed, I can turn these hurt, angry feelings into Christ's very capable hands and He will heal my aching soul, if I let Him.

Since I applying this Bible verse to my own life, it may not convey the whole meaning of the verse. Debbie

Eating the Bread of Sorrows

 It is vain for you to rise up early, to sit up late, to eat the bread of sorrows, for so He [the Lord God] gives His beloved sleep. Psalm 127:2

Sure, there were evenings, years before I turned my food over into God's very capable hands, where I stayed up late eating. Fortunately for me, that's not the case, these days! The thing is, I can't take credit for any of it.  I didn't just decide to eat differently. I didn't will it to happen. I didn't make an elaborate plan or go on a specific diet. I just gave up! Yes, you heard me right...I just gave up!

I gave up trying to diet. I gave up on trying to ever be thin, because I had been putting my life on hold all those years, until I was finally thin! I just plain...gave up! I had been on more diets and food programs than I could mention, and some multiple times, at that. I even had staples put in my ears, because that was the current weight loss fun, all to no avail, but a big medical bill.

No matter what I tried, it didn't work, or not for long. I felt like a failure and felt I would never be thin, so I just gave up! I sat down on my bed, over 30 years ago and said, "God, if You ever want me to be thin, You'll have to do it, because I can't. I give up!' You know what? I wasn't expecting anything to happen when I gave up, but it was that very same day, that Christ made the difference in my life. No more did I stay up late to eat the bread of sorrow, over the stressors in my life. I started turning these over into Christ's very capable hands. That made all the difference and He can do it for you, if you truly give up trying to be in control, and turn these things over to Him!"

Since I am applying these Bible Verses to my life, it may not convey the whole meaning of the verses. Debbie