The greedy stir up conflict, and those, who trust in the Lord will prosper. Proverbs 28:25 NIV Bible
Well, the conflict that's stirred up when I'm greedy related to food, is more of a personal sort. Not only is there the potential for weight gain, but when I'm greedy, it brings up all these mixed feelings from my past.
It reminds me of when I was about 8 or 9 and I skimmed the top layer off the homemade butterscotch pudding my mother had set in the window to cool. My only thought after being sent to my room, was that if I had known my mother would end up throwing out the whole bowl of pudding, I would have eaten even more of it! I had no sense of remorse!
It reminds me of when I encouraged the neighbor boy to go with me to the "Candy Store" two times to steal candy and treats. I never got caught, but the Lord had such an uneasy feeling within me, that let me realize that this dastardly deed was known by the Lord God, even if no one else knew. I never did that again, because I didn't like the idea of doing something that would disappoint the Lord, that way.
It reminds me of how I scolded my young daughter trying to get some of my favorite Pippin Apples from the refrigerator to give to her friends. She ended up feeling guilty for doing that, but I felt justified in scolding her for doing this, because they were my only special treat, since I was dieting. Later, once I thought of my self-serving actions, I deeply regretted by response to my daughter. I so wish that I had instead shared admiration for her wanting to share with her friends, but I can't change what I said, although I apologized years later.
It reminds me of how I had already eaten two fried egg sandwiches and was basically full, but the emptiness within me still felt hungry. So, I made a third fried egg sandwich that fell on the floor. It fell mayonnaise side down on the floor and it was goopy to pick the fried egg part up off the floor, but I did and promptly reassembled the sandwich and ate it. Although I have many mixed feelings about this episode, it was the start of the many changes the Lord God did in my life related to food. Through these, and putting my food, my body, my eating, and my stress into the Lord God's very capable hands, He blessed me with a weight loss of over 80 pounds and He has allowed the vast majority of that weight loss to stay off over the 30+ years. The thing is, if the Lord can do this for me, who is has sunk into the Greedy Gurdies, He can do it for you, if you only ask Him. I will explain more in the next post.
