Yet now, I am happy, not because you were made sorry, but because your sorrow led you to repentance. For you became sorrowful as God intended, and so weren't harmed in any way by us. 2 Corinthians 7:9
The Apostle Paul is saying this. Although this post doesn't exactly have to do with this verse, it does relate to my life in a somewhat similar way. You would think when the Lord God has performed a major miracle in my life, like the loss of over 80 pounds and for the majority of it to stay off for over 30 years, I would be more appreciative of all He's done for me, and be a better example of how He works in my life.
Well the thing is, there are many times during the day, I feel so very close to the Lord God, especially when I'm reading from the Bible every morning and evening. It sets such a powerful tone in my life. But it's not five minutes later, I get back into the I's and Me's. I want this, Give this to me. Fortunately for me, the Lord God is very forgiving, but why do I find it so difficult to tell Him, I'm sorry?
Am I so absorbed in my own life, that I don't take the time to apologize when I've sinned? Actually, that probably is true. Is it that I'm so busy compiling lists of what I want to ask for in my prayers to Him, that I forget to say I'm sorry for all my many sins? This, too, is probably true. Is it that I take the Lord's forgiveness and all He's done for me, for granted? Again, that's probably true. The sad thing is, I could probably go on and on with this list of why I don't tell the Lord, I'm sorry, but I need to let my sorrow for these many things lead me to repentance for what I've done, and not take the Lord's Salvation and forgiveness for granted.
