Jeremiah 39:18 I will save you: you will not fall by the sword but will escape with your life, because you trust in Me, declares the Lord. NIV Bible
So, maybe I'm not going to fall by the sword, but unfortunately, I traded the sword for food. It was my downfall for so many, many years! And if you really think of it, food can be just as deadly as a sword, as well. I turned to food when I was worried. I turned to food when I was happy. I turned to food when I was bored. I turned to food when I was afraid. Actually, I didn't need much of a reason to turn to food!
Well, the thing is, after all these years of turning to food, the Lord had it on my heart that all that time, I had been turning to food like a false god. At first, I was in denial. I loved the Lord, how could I be turning to food like a false god? Well, plain and simple, I turned to food to comfort me in all these situations, instead of turning to Christ in times of stress, etc. to comfort me.
I was overwhelmed with the thought that I had been turning my back on the Lord all these years, and turning to food instead! Once He showed me this, when I'd get the "eat the door knobs off" hunger, I would find a quiet place and pray, turning that feeling over into Christ's very capable hands. Many of the times, I didn't know why I had that gnawing, starving feeling. But during the time I had with the Lord, asking Him why I felt that way, He would have on my heart what was really going on. Sometimes, I was worried about a particular situation, that I pretended didn't bother me. Other times, it was other stressors that I needed to learn to trust God with. It turns out, He was right, I did escape with my life, but a much better life than I had before I started turning these things into His hands!
