"Pardon me, my Lord," Gideon replied, "but how can I save Israel? My clan is the weakest in Manasseh, and I am the least in my family?" Judges 6:15 NIV Bible
The back story of this is that the Lord asked Gideon to lead some of the Israelites into battle against the Middianites, but Gideon asks the Lord, "How can I do it?" Well, sometimes in my life, I end up saying the same things to the Lord, through what I say, but often by what I fail to do that He's requested of me.
I realize that there was a time in my life where I responded with disbelief when the Lord had it on my heart to do things for Him, because I didn't quite understand how He works in my life. That's like Gideon, who didn't know the Lord would have him return of thousands of Israelites, so that the Lord God would have Gideon win the battle with only 300 men. The Lord did this, so the Israelites would know that the battle was won through the Lord God, and not by the Israelite's powerful, large army. Well, the Lord does things like that in my life, as well.
The thing is, once I realized how powerful the Lord is, why do I keep asking Him, "How can I do this, Lord?" I should know better by now. He's allowed a miraculous weight loss of 80 pounds and for the vast majority of it to stay off for over 30 years. He has healed my sagging self-esteem & He refocuses me when I start slip sliding down a slippery slope of old habits and poor choices. He's had it on my heart to write different blogs for Him, to show others some of the many ways He has worked in my life. But most times, my reply is, "How can I, Lord?" Sure I have these insignificant reasons for thinking I shouldn't do something, but fortunately for me, Jesus didn't say when it came to giving His life on the cross for our sins, "How can I, Lord?" I have lots to be prayerful about!
