Do you know how God controls the clouds and makes His lightning flash? Job 37:15 NIV Bible
I don't feel like a Control Freak, but when I look at the evidence the Lord God shows me, I very reluctantly admit it. This, in and of itself, is some of the evidence, since I drag my feet about admitting that I like to be in control of situations in my life! A big portion of my life, I frequently prayed, God help me loose all my excess weight. Help me become thin, help me be the person You want me to be, help me eat less, help me have more friends, help me be more respected, help me have better self-esteem, and the list goes on, and on, and on! It wasn't until one day when I was giving up on ever losing my excess weight I'd carried for most of my life, I prayed to the Lord God.
I said, "Dear God, I give up on ever being thin. I've tried and tried and tried, but I only loose a little weight and gain even more back than I started with. If You ever want me to be thin, You'll have to do it, because I can't!" The irony is, that very same day, the Lord God made a dramatic change in my life. When I prayed my "I give up" prayer, I didn't expect God to do anything. I was just giving Him notice that I was giving up on ever trying to be thin. But, in hindsight, I've found out that's the first time, I ever turned over control into the Lord God's very capable hands!
That same day, I no longer craved sweets, which had become an addiction to me, nor did I want plate after plate of food. He also showed me that food had become a false god to me. I was turning to food to comfort me in times of stress, joy, worry, boredom, rather than turning these over to Christ. Once I started doing that instead of turning to food, that worked a wedge between me and my faith in Christ, my whole live changed. He allowed the loss of over 80 pounds and has allowed the vast majority of it to stay off over 30 years. I had never realized all those previous years that my being a Control Freak, was what was keeping me from having a closer relationship with the Lord, having better self-esteem, and friendships. He can do the same thing for you, too, if you truly let Him do that!
